Its reaching the end of semester 1.
After spending 2 semesters here, i would say that life gets more interesting day by day.
so many bittersweet memories we shared together =)
such fond memories
SIGH
Despite that, I still cant bring myself to ingnore the bitter moments that clouded them
Today i woke up feeling terrible and guilty.
I was invovled in a conspiracy against a certain someone.
Someone who is often judged unilaterally.
Someone who used to be a great person.
Someone who used to help me regardless of the situation.
But, that person has changed.
His desperation to vye for popularity and seek attention became his undoing.
The fact that, there are many other things he did that pissed everyone, booked him a
one-way ticket to become an outcast.
Now, he is like a tiny island besieged by us, rough oceans.
But
he still tries his best to fit in no matter what.
His attitude sickens me, but his perserverance amazes me.
The fact that he is human like all of us, shows that he need friends. But everyone, including me are turning our backs against him.
Then, i question myself,
Why did I opt to exile him?
why couldnt i just accept him for who he is, or just help him change?
Maybe i still lack compassion
Maybe i still need to learn how to practise metta
SIGH
I dont know how I can stand being in his shoes; carving a fake smile on his face to hide his sorrow, pretending he is still part of the family despite knowing that he was already disowned, and facing people who refuse to face him.
No man is an island. And no man deserves a treatment of that sort.
but his sickening attitude is really distasteful, and it annoys me to no end
SIGH
this is a post, full of contradictions.
My heart tells me to avoid him, but my conscience tells me to befriend him
What should I do now?
I really dont know