song 104 : Ren's 4 hours of mild depression

dear friends and family

things are fine in nottingham

i'm adapting well

Today we had Light, Waves and electrons

and i realised
things are not fine

not fine at all

i realised i dont know what the bleep was even going on
the feelings are mutual to all my other friends
everyone was whipped into a whirlwind of immense confusion

for once, i felt so helpless and unintelligent

when class was over,
i fell into a state of mild depression

some thoughts actually popped in my mind

was i really meant to be an engineer?
was taking up the course of engineering a wrong choice?
am i really a science person?

i kept falling deeper into the black hole of helplessness
then jacy and kin wai phoned me for dinner
we started talking about our ENOLWA class
and we decided that this is only happening to us because its like our first time doing a physics equation in 9 months
this should be normal

Plus photons are like something alien to us
first time hearing it
i mean, all of us used to have problems doing functions when we first started form 4
but in the end, wallah.
its like the easiest chapter for us.

then, i realised that whether I'm suit to be an engineer does not depend on one question.
i'll go forward and move towards my shining star no matter what.

so we studied together
and we worked it out!
we realised that the only reason we dont know how to solve the problems is that we did not understand the formula and the symbols.

the tutorial that i thought will be very hard, turns out to kinda easy somehow.

maybe i make judgements too early about the subjects befor i really get to know it
so
from now on
i will try my best to
OPEN MY MIND,
BEFORE I MAKE IT